{"id":1747,"date":"2021-02-20T10:03:24","date_gmt":"2021-02-20T17:03:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/nobiliserotica.com\/site\/?p=1747"},"modified":"2021-02-20T10:03:24","modified_gmt":"2021-02-20T17:03:24","slug":"ep-453-my-heart-beats-backwards-by-neil-james-hudson","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/nobiliserotica.com\/site\/2021\/ep-453-my-heart-beats-backwards-by-neil-james-hudson\/","title":{"rendered":"Ep 453 My Heart Beats Backwards by Neil James Hudson"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<!-- iframe plugin v.6.0 wordpress.org\/plugins\/iframe\/ -->\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" style=\"border:none\" src=\"\/\/html5-player.libsyn.com\/embed\/episode\/id\/18005861\/height\/100\/width\/480\/thumbnail\/no\/render-playlist\/no\/theme\/legacy\/tdest_id\/105741\" height=\"100\" width=\"480\" scrolling=\"no\" 0=\"allowfullscreen\" 1=\"webkitallowfullscreen\" 2=\"mozallowfullscreen\" 3=\"oallowfullscreen\" 4=\"msallowfullscreen\" class=\"iframe-class\" frameborder=\"0\"><\/iframe>\n\n<p>This month&#8217;s <a href=\"http:\/\/patreon.com\/nobilis\" target= \"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">patron<\/a>-funded story is &#8220;My Heart Beats Backwards&#8221; by Neil James Hudson, narrated by Nobilis Reed.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 40px;\"><span style=\"font-size: 12pt;\">I still hadn&#8217;t mastered walking backwards. It looked simple, but after a short while became exhausting. Nonetheless, it was an essential skill if I were to pass as normal.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 40px;\"><span style=\"font-size: 12pt;\">I could manage speech. It had been difficult at first, but with the help of a radio and tape recorder I&#8217;d been able to work out which sounds were which when reversed&#8211;it wasn&#8217;t always obvious. Once I&#8217;d worked out how to listen backwards and understand what was being said, I found that I could pronounce the syllables in reverse myself, and be understood&#8211;although I preferred to keep conversations short, as I could never predict what had just been said.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 40px;\"><span style=\"font-size: 12pt;\">I looked around me. It still looked strange: an entire city in reverse, walking backwards while looking forwards but somehow never colliding. It was difficult to remember that I was the odd one out: that everyone else lived normally, but I had gone into reverse gear.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 40px;\"><span style=\"font-size: 12pt;\">I sighed, and set off again, slower than everyone else. I tried to avoid them, but I simply wasn&#8217;t fluent. I would hear tuts and grunts, warnings that I was about to bump into someone.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 40px;\"><span style= \"font-size: 12pt;\">Behind me I heard sobbing. I would have liked to stop and help, but it was impossible when you lived as I did. I heard a woman&#8217;s voice: it was difficult to translate it through the tears, but I realised she was saying, &#8220;you don&#8217;t even know you&#8217;re leaving!&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 40px;\"><span style=\"font-size: 12pt;\">I ignored her. She seemed to be walking backwards in the same direction as me, so we were unlikely to collide.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 40px;\"><span style=\"font-size: 12pt;\">&#8220;You don&#8217;t even know you&#8217;re leaving!&#8221; she shouted again. And then the single word, &#8220;no!&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 40px;\"><span style=\"font-size: 12pt;\">And then I felt her grab my arm, and realised that I was in trouble. I turned to face her.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 40px;\"><span style=\"font-size: 12pt;\">&#8220;You don&#8217;t even know who I am!&#8221; she said.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"https:\/\/directory.libsyn.com\/episode\/index\/id\/18005861\/tdest_id\/105741\">Check out this episode!<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This month&#8217;s patron-funded story is &#8220;My Heart Beats Backwards&#8221; by Neil James Hudson, narrated by Nobilis Reed. I still hadn&#8217;t mastered walking backwards. It looked simple, but after a short while became exhausting. Nonetheless, it was an essential skill if I were to pass as normal. I could manage speech. 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